Sarah Nyhan

God doesn’t let me get too attached to any of these seeker speakers. It’s like there is something I’m supposed to learn from someone and then when the season is up, it’s like sour milk. Like all of a sudden things they say or do start going off the course I’ve been going down. If I try to force it, if I try to keep reaching out to that person, then it gets worse and worse.

Weird dynamic. To not cut off people but know there is only so much you are supposed to get (for lack of a better word) from them. If God tells me to let someone go, if I don’t do it, the relationship gets worse and worse until I let go.

Think the point is for me to primarily talk with Holy Spirit. Maybe I want so badly to be able to reliably go to another person because I don’t think in my heart that it is possible to be fulfilled equally or preferably more in my relationship with Holy Spirit/God?