Do Something

Spring cleaning my entire life. For a few months now. Especially since my employer went out of business in December. Working on all those projects I’ve put off for way too long.

Sometimes I get so overwhelmed with anxiety. So much to do. So much to process. So much to feel. Ugh. Yet it’s all coming together. Slow, but steady.

I’m excited. Building a good foundation for the future. Especially for business. And better relationships and physical health.

Sustained growth requires so much discipline. And being internally motivated. Versus just waiting for direction from others.

Growth requires pushing through the fear of failure and potentially appearing foolish. Remember, if they’re not in the arena with you – why give loose lips and condescending looks so much power?

We all have the same amount of hours in the day. Yes, things have happened to you – but what are you going to do about it now? Are you going to be able to live well with the excuses you keep telling yourself?

A friend told me yesterday: one step doesn’t feel like a lot, but a lot of little steps add up eventually. Choose life and live!

I think of the parable of the talents. The only one who was in trouble was the one who did nothing. Because of fear. You are loved. You’ve been given your own unique mixed bag of blessings.

What do you want? What are you going to be able to say you did with yourself today? At least try something. One thing. For you. To reclaim some self-respect. And enjoyment.

Religion incorrectly requires you to prove your devotion. Knowing Him makes you realize His is not in question. Real love gives you wings and wants the best for you.

Maybe it won’t work out. But at least you will have tried. At least you’d know. This existence of watching the clock while waiting around for a “miracle” will always be here if you want to come back to it.

Fear and ego – the deathly duo. The good thing about failure is if you face it then you realize it’s more bark than bite. And newsflash: we’re all humans fumbling around trying to figure it out.

Who do you think is keeping the real score? What is going to matter on your last day? I say go for it. Give it your all. Not recklessly. But with your whole heart. All your strength. So that you are satisfied with your effort.

Progress, not perfection. Never give up.

Second Time Around

Perfect love casts out fear.

“The old system under the law of Moses was only a shadow, a dim preview of the good things to come, not the good things themselves… He takes away the first that He may establish the second… And since we have a great High Priest who rules over God’s house, let us go right into the presence of God with sincere hearts fully trusting him.” (Hebrews 10)

“I’ve seen others come on board.”

A new day. New life.


Perfect love casts out fear. Fear is a liar. Fear robs your rest and steals your happiness. Lord, please burn up all our fear with Your fire. All my hope is in Jesus. I don’t need to see everything, just more of You. God be greater than the worries in my life, be stronger than the weakness in my mind, be louder!


What do you want? What is the story that you are telling yourself? What excuse are you using today? What will you have to do to live with the regret of not going for it? Of not giving it everything you have? Of not leaving your all on the field?

Not little all. But big ALL! Because it’s going to take every little last bit of you. All your energy, all your strength, all your focus, all your mind, and mostly – ALL your heart.

This is personal. Dreams like this aren’t safely detached away in an intellectual cocoon. Dreams like this are deeply personal and come with inherent expense and risk. But you already know there is also a price for letting them fester inside without giving birth to them.

They might take you out by going for it, but there is a guaranteed death of you from the inside out for slowly smothering the sprouting seed of them inside the womb of your comfort. Be bold. Embrace discomfort. It’s going to come either way. The pain of regret or the pain of change.

You are not your failures. You are courageous and big of heart. You are a warrior. You are alive when you are living fully from that space. It’s like having a fire inside that is able to give warmth and light to so many but will burn you up if you keep it to yourself.

There were big losses. Big punches to the gut. Big pains. Those around you with less awareness don’t want to have these conversations with you because they stalled out and shut down long ago. It’s too painful. They are more afraid than you are.

But you know great love. You know a great God. Ask for Him to breathe new life into your heart today. Ask Him to give you His eyes.

Don’t you dare insult Him by adding this as a requirement to a checklist to earn His love and acceptance, a burden. That is not His heart and you know it on your better days.

There is light at the end of this tunnel. There is great reward with great dreams. Some part of you has experiential knowledge that knows this to be true.

They may never know what it took to get there. But you’re not doing it for them. What if you get what you want? What if you go for it and it happens? What do you want? Choose life. Never give up.

Not Alone

Elijah said to God, “…I alone am left…” and God said, “I have reserved seven thousand”. After He comforts him and gives him nourishment. After He says, “Go, return on your way to the Wilderness”.

Possible that things will get worse before they get better. Do not be afraid or dismayed. The battle is not yours, but God’s. You will not need to fight in this battle. Position yourselves, stand still and see the salvation of the Lord, who is with you. Do not fear or be dismayed. Go out against them, for the Lord is with you.

If you have run with the footmen, and they have wearied you, then how can you contend with horses?

Things might not get better for awhile but I am not abandoned. Prayers are being answered. For good. Just not the way that is wanted or expected.

The disciples were loved and safe in the boat even though the waves were whipping all around terribly.

Fighting to stay rested. Almost what it seems like. And yet still He is the One fighting for me. Can I really just be a kid on His lap? Let Him do ALL the heavy lifting? Seems like everything is being stripped away to where I have no other options.

I was reading about how we think a day starts at sunset but the Jewish people think the day starts at sundown, I believe. So I guess when it is dark, that means the light is around the corner. Not the end but the beginning.

Isaiah 43

“Do not remember the former things, nor consider the things of old. Behold, I will do a new thing, now it shall spring forth; shall you not know it? I will even make a road in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.”