Sarah Nyhan

Does God have a “will” for me?

In that if I make the wrong choice then I am going to run into problems to get me back on track?

On the one hand I think He’s given me gifts and I am more in my groove when I operate in those gifts.

I can feel sometimes God pulling me out of my comfort zone. Something about my weak areas drawing me into deeper relationship with Him and making me a more well-rounded person.

My mind gets a jumbled mess of fears. Goes the punishment direction and gets blinded by that old way of thinking.

I can’t imagine it is God’s character to have some secret mission for me to figure out and if I can’t figure it out then too bad for me – off to the frying pan – eternally or in the present.

It’s both freeing and terrifying to switch from thinking every little thing is “God’s will” to my choices actually matter. But that God still works within our choices for our good.

Hurts my brain. Am I getting anything right?

My heart and spirit are saying, “Yes, yes, yes and can I have some more, please.” My brain is like, “Wait, what?” I told my brain to be quiet for now. I’m going to meditate.