Sarah Nyhan

My old way was striving. If I didn’t figure it out, then I was left out. This new way is more like just being.

I heard someone say the idea of being safe is not realistic. But we can be strong. God is making me strong.

I feel full for the first time. Like I can only handle so much. My mind shuts down when I try to force it to find answers too quickly. Like everything I had before was just a taste of what is. Like when you have a meal so good that you don’t want to rush it. That must be what real love is like.

I am learning that my home is in Christ. I am healed by going “home”. I am not healed by my own efforts.

My mind wants to protect my heart. But that’s the enemy’s lie from the beginning: “God isn’t good and He doesn’t really love you. It’s up to you to make it.” So I’m really struggling with letting go. It feels like walking on water. If I take my eyes off Jesus then I start to panic and sink.

We create our own pain – which is punishment enough. But not to destroy us. Instead to burn up what is bad and leave the good. Like when the Father let the prodigal go and didn’t try to hold him back. God uses our own sin to save us. In killing Christ, we were saved.

I’ve been reading the Bible the wrong way my whole life. And yet I always knew. I never had peace. I tried to force myself to have peace, but never worked.

I am scared, but excited.

I can let people be who they are and just love them. Be presence.

In relationship things happen. Love always creates. Think about why parents want kids.

We cannot hurt another person without hurting ourselves.

We underestimate the power of God’s presence in us.

God has made it EXTREMELY clear that numbers do not matter at all to Him. That one person is as important as 100 people.

Learning that I don’t have to be perfect has given me the confidence to step out.

Right now the majority of the ladies at my study are from my old church. So they are not always going to say things that are in alignment with this new-to-me stuff you’ve been learning. I’m challenged this time around to share what I’ve been learning. I’m not afraid of having people with mixed views there. I’m confident Holy Spirit will work it all out.