Sarah Nyhan

I don’t think God is mad at us. I think He is mad for us.

Yesterday I was feeling sorry for myself and went back into the witchcraft line of thinking that I’m coming out of: “Well, if I had just done XYZ then God would have done 123. So maybe if I do ABC then God will do 789”.

And I felt like Holy Spirit said, “Really? You are so close. Do you really want to go down that road again? It’s your choice. We can keep doing this as long as you want to. I love you.”

I laughed and replied, “Nooooooo! No more lessons! I am so tired! So tired of lessons!”

I felt like God was smiling back a big smile to me.

I have always struggled with the Hagar thing. For years. The thought recently occurred to me: maybe when Hagar ran away and God sent her back, it wasn’t God saying abuse is ok anymore than He says murder, incest, or prostitution is ok.

Maybe it was something totally different. Maybe Hagar represents our strength/works and Isaac represents God’s promise/work.

So maybe when God told Hagar to go back to Sarah, He was saying something like our works/strength need to submit to God’s promise?

And maybe when Hagar was sent out with her son, it was a picture that our works/strength will not result in God’s promise and blessing? In other words, the two can’t go together? Can’t coincide together in the end?