Sarah Nyhan

“Wow” and “Yup” are all that is needed. It is great to
know that someone out there knows what i am talking about. I don’t know
anyone else right now, that i’ve met face-to-face, that has self-harmed to
the extent that I have. Sometimes I have to know I’m not insane or evil for
feeling the way i do. ya know? I’ve been “clean” from self-harm for over a
year. It’s good not to rip my body up anymore, but sometimes it is SO HARD
to resist. I pass by my old “tools” sometimes in the grocery store and I
stand transfixed. There is a war going on in my head. The whole mind over
body thing. During the times when i feel totally empty are the hardest
times. Cutting always made that empty feeling go away. It soothed me. I
can’t talk about it anymore; i’m making myself feel like i want to do it
again. Thanks for listening. I will stay safe – please keep yourself safe
also. I can guarantee you there is light at the end of the tunnel. It’s
not always sunshine and roses, but it’s worth the journey.