Sarah Nyhan

I HATE IT!
why can’t it go away
why do i have to have a damn crutch
i hate it
i hate it
i hate
it
i also damnit love it
i love the feel of warm blood
of the “love” that drips out the side of my arm
i am not a “skin picker” but i love to make the scabs bleed over and over
i am sick
i am ugly
i suck
i was hoping i was cured
i was hoping the monster would leave me alone
f-ing monster
where the hell does he get off bothering me?
i wish all the monsters would go away
back into a deep dark hole where only the really bad people would have to
fight them
and lose
but no, i must be here
sitting here
wasting DAMN near many hours thinking about this shiznit
thinking about this crapp
i HATE IT!
GO AWAY!
i don’t want to look ugly
leave me something to do when you will go away!
PLEASE!
please
i pray
please
leave
me
alone
what
have
i
done
against
you
nothing
but what
you wanted
and asked for
and
demanded
i am tired
leave
me alone
please