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I took this picture in Maryland. It represents what life on social media looks like. Real life is more like an untamed forest.

I saw a different patch of wild trees but wasn’t able to capture a picture. There was evidence of new life sprouting up from the ground. Almost hidden. Overshadowed by the established growth.

Reminded me that sometimes we plant seeds in our lives and it takes a long, long, very long time to see any measurable progress. Much less, for the old to be replaced by the new.

Sometimes we give up before we see results. Sometimes it looks like we’ll never achieve momentum. Technology trains us to be impatient, to resist hard work and pain.

What is a pregnancy but nine months of labor? But women beg for that opportunity. Because of the payoff at the end. Such are many things in life.

Reminded that sometimes the forest of our life can seem to be on fire, everything being burned to the ground. What initially looks like a catastrophe might be necessary and a blessing in disguise. Required for regeneration.

We can hold onto our identity as beloved children of God during times when all that appeared to have defined us is being stripped away.

Decisions

Stayed in bed until 5pm today. My body demanded the rest. This crazy past week. And lots of decisions. Am I supposed to settle down? Am I supposed to risk everything for growth? Should I focus on one thing? Can I do it all? Only have this moment. I’m finally free and it feels a bit terrifying. Responsibility for my choices. Not just “destiny”. What to do, what to do… Lots of questions. Risk either way. Always an opportunity cost. Finally not paralyzed by fear of failure. No safety. Only strength. But I’d like to make some progress. A definite fork in the road. Turning a corner. At least I know I’m loved either way. Makes me dream big and have more courage. Here’s to 2018 being another adventure.

Business Cards

My first business cards. I designed them myself. The background is a picture I took. Excited. Now when people ask me where they can buy the shirts I design, I can give them a real business card. Need to work on a better design for the next printing, but not bad for my first try. Live and learn. Better next time.