Will I give people more power than God? Will I let the opinions of others keep me small and silent?
What if God says I am loved versus just being tolerated or appeased? What if God says I am accepted and included? What if God is proud of me?
How much more weight will I give to the words of others versus God’s heart for me?
I’d gladly speak without showing myself for all to scrutinize. For all to judge and pick apart. I don’t want to bear the attention. But I feel like that is the easy way out. My version of Moses saying, “But they won’t listen to me, Lord.”
What if it is our perceived flaws that God is so eager to celebrate? Not to shame us. But that through us others may see and feel real hope? What gospel would it be if it only offers hope to those who already seem to have it all together? What gospel would it be if it is only for those who have enough strength?
I have prayed way more than three times to come to you as a different person. A more sanitized socially-acceptable version of myself. But He changed my heart. He showed me a different perspective. And so here I am.
If God is for us, is that enough? If the Creator of the entire universe is for us then is that enough? It was enough for David. It was enough for Joseph. It was enough for Gideon. It was enough for Ruth. It was enough for Esther. Is it enough for us?
How much wasted time have I spent agonizing over trying to fit in when maybe God absolutely wants me to stand out?
And so here I am. Vulnerable, but not alone. Giving all my fears and feelings to God. Who better to speak to my heart? To penetrate the years of discouragement?
What shame will we ask Jesus about today? What shame will we bring to Holy Spirit for healing today? God already knows. He assures us that we are welcome. That we are His kids and He does not do abandonment. He will never leave us alone.
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Wow! You are hitting on Paul young’s new book concept. Ontology vs OUR confused idea of who we are. The TRUTH of our being vs the WAY of our being. While most don’t realize this is an essential path from living in the delusion of our darkness to the Truth of our essential being as adopted children of the Most High. Wondering if Paul would like to talk to you. Let’s ask Papa for wisdom in this matter.❤️
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Thank you so much! I am sure listening to Paul helped me reach this point. No doubt. I trust however it works out. 🥰