I am reading A More Christlike Word by Brad Jersak as part of a study group I am attending. I am going to be sharing some of my reflections as I read the book. Here is my second reflection:

Over the past especially five years, not only has Jesus been revealed to me more and more, but suprisingly I feel like God maybe more so has been revealing me to myself.

Previously I feel like I was so hyperfocused on getting the approval of a false deity that I never really ever started living. I missed the entire point of this life. After my eyes opened, I was content to keep on as before – even if with the real God this time. But I feel like Trinity blocked me at every pass.

And in the nicest way. I feel like Trinity said, “Yeah, yeah, yeah – God is great. BUT, let Me show you how cool you are!” It’s such a weird feeling. To feel like you are meeting yourself for the first time in a very long time. Decades.

What if instead of standing still in a building for decades on end, Trinity would prefer you to get out there and share yourself with the people you’ve siloed yourself off from? What if you actually have something to learn from them? What if that thing that makes you you is actually to be celebrated versus erased away for the sake of fitting in?

What if your desires are actually the way forward versus suppressed and denied? Not carte blanche, but at least looked at as if they are meaningful and you have meaning also?

What if the chief end of man is not to study the Bible ad nauseum – but rather to go LIVE!? To love. To be yourself to the people who need you.

I don’t believe in the Bible. I believe in Jesus.