Another reason why focusing on losing weight doesn’t work for me: I’m pretty sure the only “gift” my biological father gave me for my sixteenth birthday was a book on how to lose weight.

Like, wtf?! Any other time, if you insist. But pretty much the absolute worst gift for a teenage girl’s sixteenth birthday.

Isn’t there more to me than my weight? So yeah, huge internal blocks when it comes to any focus on that. Lots of triggers. Lots of anger.

So again, what works for me is to focus on healthy habits versus losing weight. To think of changes in terms of making me a stronger person versus boiling down my worth to some number on a scale in order to make other people comfortable.