“He must increase, but I must decrease.”
I am at the point in my life where I want to attend a church, as we commonly think of churches, only if the speaker is explaining the Bible versus using the Bible mainly to extrapolate application for behavior modification.
I used to treat the Bible as more of a manual for how I should behave. In the sense of how I can make an angry god happy with me so I can get what I want. Whether that was going to heaven or whatever else I wanted in this world. Now I call that witchcraft. Just trying to manipulate God.
Now I see the Bible as a collection of writings designed to lead me to know and experience who God is and who I am in Him.
So when I go to church, I want to hear and learn about God versus yet another sermon on what I should and should not do to manipulate God as if He is the American concept of Santa Claus.
I think just like in The Garden, we have two approaches to how we view our existence. Either by grace from an awesome Creator who we have never been separated from. Or by the long, long hard road of works. Where if you are the least bit “successful”, then you can torture yourself for years until you finally burn out and realize you are unable to hold it all together.
I’ve “lived” by my works most of my life. Finally beginning to flourish by embracing God’s grace.
Prayer: Please help me, Father. To quiet my mind and rest in You. Thank You for Your love.