Earlier this week I wrote, “I may never be financially rich, but I’m overwhelmed sometimes by how blessed I am with the priceless gifts of so many wonderful people in my life.” And then it hit me…
Back around 2011 or 2012 I was sitting at my desk on the 5th floor at an international corporation in downtown San Antonio. Frustrated with my life. And I remember praying something like, “God, please help me be the kind of person who You can trust to be rich”.
And I remember so clearly the response from Holy Spirit: “You have no idea how rich you already are”.
I didn’t know what that meant at the time. But it struck me after posting the other day, that I think I’m finally at a point where I understand.
In many ways my life is “worse” than back in 2011 & 2012. I have experienced so much loss and so many difficult things since then. I’ve gone through so many heart-breaking painful things since then that I never thought I’d go through. In some ways, I’m even worse off financially compared to before.
But I can truly say that now I understand in more ways how rich I already am.
I understand now how rich I am to know and truly believe how much God loves me. Not religion. But like the kind of love you can fall back onto. The kind of love that catches you.
I understand now how rich I am to live in this country. With all its problems, we have a lot more freedoms and comforts than many in the world. People risk their lives to come to this country.
I understand now how rich I am in terms of relationships. It’s a natural temptation to look around and see what I don’t have. But if I focus on that then I miss the amazing favor and love that I’ve been blessed with from so many people. He redeems what the locusts have eaten, just not always in the ways we expect.
And I could go on and on. I don’t have everything I want, but I’m incredibly blessed. Very thankful. Cool to see the journey and change of perspective in that light.